Strawberry Kisses;

Guess this is the closure.

Thanks.

on the other note, have been really stressed. maybe i keep to myself too much so people dont understand what i am going through.

sometimes i find myself asking myslf, what is it that i really want. why am i living life as it is?

in either way, my new resolution (which i never mentioned) was to go all out and try some stuffs but still within my comfort zone. i wanna try roller blading and go to nature places. i do hope i am still able to upkeep it.

work’s been really tiring. it sucks to clear shit up from what the other irresponsible lad’s been doing. there dont seem to be a beginning and neither is it going good. i do not know the limits and i guess i still have alot to learn.

night classs sucks terribly. really.

just broke down. having to deal with 3 issues is not a new thing to me. but i guess i was just upset with myself. i think so. i did not grow up in a very conducive environment and some things still bring out the fear in me. i just have to live with it, perhaps?

i wanna get away from here even if it means for a day. i think i need rest.

thanks again.

i tell you, you just bloody hell need 1 thing to fucking piss your day man. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

FUCK YOU!

it’s scary to feel this way. over emotional for nothing all of a sudden. sighs.

歌曲：很想你

歌手：张智成 专辑：listen to me

你在哪里?这些年来如意不如意?
还快乐?还单纯?还美丽?
时光如何对你?
我在这里人海中的一座岛屿
很平静风平浪静
只除了深夜里回忆会疯狂来袭
我很想你你知道吗
如果可以就让我再见你
美好微笑清澈眼睛
好确定那持离只毁了我一个而已

我很想你听见了吗? woo~
这是唯一我无解的困境
那些过去不肯过去
不管我后来遇见多少人
只能叹息
都不是你
我只想爱你
我在哪里?你会不会偶尔好奇?
有没有曾经怀疑?
我说我会忘记只是种好意

this came a little late but still, merry christmas (belated) and advance happy new year!

had a little gathering at my place this yr and i must say its not as crowded as past years. still, it was nice. thanks for Cal, YZ and Fad for coming over. haha. the game was hmmm… lets just say remember Karma. very soon, Fad is gonna get enlisted. oh well. time flies! from being in school and thinking that you’d nvr get out of that rut. to now, friends get into NS, gets a girl/boy. hmm. next you know, you’re gonna attend their wedding!

oh yea. speaking of which, my eldest sis is pregnant! weehoo! i am gonna be an aunty soon. sounds so old right. i know. lol!

went for KTV on Sat with Jo. hmm. finally got what i craved for. hahahha. and yes. have been craving for lots of buffets. haha. which i got over the month of Nov. imagine how much fats have gotten into me. not like it matterd though. haha.

oh hmm. speaking of which… maybe my delay in my monthly stuff is due to over binge.hahahahahahahahahaha. bless me! but i guess its coming soon cos i’ve been over emoional for nothing. even caught myself crying to nap yday! how scary is that. and it was for nothing. tears just flowed. so, please speak to me with cautious. lol.

honestly, 2009 is quite a scary year for me i guess. new environment (work)… different expectations which i guess makes it all the more worse. but one thing is definitely worth looking out for. which is i am gonnafinish my course in Oct ’09!!!! how’s that man? after close to 2.5yrs of night class. the assignments and all. can kiss me goodbye then. till then, i still have 10mths of night class to go. *YAWNS*

my face is starting to itch recently. its like those mosquito bites surfacing but it isnt pimples. it gets itchy and when i scratch it, i guess its gonna bleed which might not be nice but at the same time, i cant leave it to tickle me right?

and yes, i shall reward myself next month with:

more clothe!

big ring!

mp3!

at the same time, gonna pay back

my mum

my sis

calvin

auction stuffs

and and and! am gonna make my way to Genting on Jan. during the CNY period. so, dont expect to see me around during the eve and first few days of CNY. hehehehehehe.

gotta go already.

bye!

You are Black Koala who has purity and sweetness of a girl.
And no matter how old you get, you can stay youthful.
Your attitude is very straight forward and bald.
You have quick mind, and a sharp instinct to read the other person’s mind.
You are an active woman.
Nevertheless, you also possess a motherly character.
You are kind and can show consideration to others.
You tend to be rather argumentative, and will not accept something that is unreasonable.
It takes time to gain your consent.
You are independent, and has a challenging spirit to achieve your objectives and ideals.
Once you start on something, you will not give up half way, or show weakness.
You know how to get on in life, and are a calculative woman.
Economic wise, you’ve got your feet steadily on the ground.
You are rather suspicious type of person.
You don’t tend to take every word of other person straightly.
You try to read behind the lines, very carefully.
You tend to get lost in your thought.
You think high of sports and training.
Nevertheless, you also think a lot about art, and are a romantic sort of person.
Even after you get married, you can be successful as a professional.

i super dun wanna go out now. haiz. the emotion turmoil.

thanks for stirring it time and again. it sucks.

i trust my sixth sense more than i trust anybody else. unless i am proven wrong. sighs. that night you told me that she called… i knew smth was going to go wrong. stupid me.

still, thank you.

Fun to be with. Secretive.

Difficult to fathom and to
be understood.

Quiet unless excited or tensed.
Takes pride in oneself.

Has reputation.

Easily
consoled.

Honest.

Concerned about people’s
feelings.

Tactful.

Friendly.

Approachable.
Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.
Moody and easily hurt.

Witty and sparkly.

spazzy at
times.

Not revengeful.

Forgiving but never forgets.

dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things.

Guides others physically and mentally.

Sensitive
and forms impressions carefully.

Caring and
loving…

Treats others equally.

Strong sense of
sympathy.

Wary and sharp..

Judges people
through observations. Hardworking.

No difficulties
in studying.

Loves to be alone.

Always broods
about the past and the old friends.

Waits for
friends. Never looks for friends.

Not aggressive
unless provoked.

Loves to be loved.

Easily hurt
but takes long to recover.

i am suddenly getting emotional. partially i guess its cos of the song i am listening to. it’s titled “Dear friend” by a chinese female singer, Shun zi. i hope i got her name spelt rightly.

sighs…………………..

i kinda miss my current class. the joy fun laughter we had. bad or good. good or bad. sighs. everybody have to move on i guess. hope they’d be better out there; in another class. i am quite sure they will.

</3

i hope the feeling is right this time.

and and and. lol. i prolly think i have an attitude problem somewhere out there. but somehow i like to test boundaries to see how far people can be stretched. lol. which i think nto many people can accept.

trying to master a skill where by i would wanna stand in people’s shoes before complaining. ahh. try try try. practise makes perfect!

oh oh oh. i wanna go to singapore art museum on Fri leh. got the programme there. quite interesting i suppose. wouldnt it be better if a partner would be there or smth?

ahhh. wishful thinking. sob!

and no, it wont be the last meeting for us yday. (:

月亮在你的眼睛太阳在我心
现在我唱这首歌 ohh 只为你
想把所有烦恼都忘掉做不做的到
你明白我心在燃烧因为你因为你
oh 为你

你心中的话我全都想听能不能相信
所有的梦里全都是你会不会停息
和你一起是否不会再放弃你的心里有没有秘密
我分不清不要在意只想为想为你写一首歌
写一首歌都是你 ooh
月亮在你的眼睛太阳在我心
现在我唱这首歌 oh 只为你
想把所有烦恼都忘掉做不做的到
你明白我心在燃烧因为你因为你
为你为你 ooh
oh, love’s in the air it’s everywhere
everyone can see everyone can feel
that love’s in the air
it doesn’t matter where
everyone agrees love is all we need

when the moon falls in your eyes
i know the sun has set
the fire still burns within me
since the day we met
i know my heaven would be so complete
you could make it real
i won’t let this change go by i can see,
i can feel you
when the moon falls in your eyes
i know the sun has set
the fire still burns within me, within me

月亮在你的眼睛太阳在我的心
现在我唱这首歌只为你